From: Shane P.
Date: November 8, 2009
To: Shileta G.
Subject: I Love You
Dear Shi,
I’ve learned through many experiences that love built primarily on physical attractiveness is predestined to be short lived. However, thus is not the case when it comes to us. I know the majority of my relationships have gone sour due to concentrating on the qualities she lacks rather than the ones she did possess. When I argue, when I struggle with you. I’m struggling, I’m arguing with myself for every fault I find in you is a denied weakness in myself like Jealousy, Faith, Trust, etc.
Jealousy. Jealousy is that pain that strickens me when humbled with apprehension that I’m not equally loved by you. My jealousy is sparked by the fear abandonment and the thoughts of you being in the arms of another.
Faith. Since I’ve arrived on this edge of all light that I know of and about to step forth into the darkness of the unknown. My faith in us tells me there will be solid ground ahead, and my faith in you has taught me to fly if there isn’t. Now I know the point of any relationship is to make each other life easier and to experience peace provide it for another outside of yourself.
Trust. It is nothing more than exposing yourself to love and the heartaches induced by someone you deeply trust.
I been guilty on plenty of occasions thinking I know all there is to know about relationships, and in these stubborn notions left no room for growth. Only by letting go can we grow. This might come off as unusual but I wish I had amnesia so I could submerge myself in the different depths of you.
Sincerely,
Shane
